六级考试

下午有六级考试，很不幸的说，这是本人第二次六级了。上次考的时候觉得挺简单的，但竟然没过。第二次谁知道会有什么样的结果呢？ 记得高考分数出来之后，有一些复读学校来找我，让我去他们学校复读，提供很好的条件，比如，妈妈可以去陪读，房子的问题由学校解决。考上了北大有很多的奖金。老爸有这方面的打算，因为年龄很小，即使复读了也在同年级中间算小的了。而且也相信我有这个水平吧。但是我自己丝毫就没有上进心，对自己也并不是那么的自信。倒不是我有什么阴影，或者是觉得高三很苦很累，只是相同的事情我就是不想再来第二次，就好像相同的话也不想喜欢再说、再听到第二次一样。 只要让我考过，我就不会再重新去考，希望考得更好去覆盖前一次的成绩，即使是有十足的把握，也还是担心有什么变数。想起Hume的怀疑论，他最大的怀疑是：如果甲出现后面总是伴随着乙，那么下一次甲出现时，你就能肯定的说乙也会跟着出现么？恐怕未必吧。康德也承认有时候并不一定某种现象就必然会带来某种结果，但是我们人总是认为应当是这样的。比如说，你好好学习，应当是会有个好成绩的。虽然我们屡屡看到有些勤奋的同学成绩并不是那么的好。为什么会有这种应当呢？是因为在我们的感性经验中存在着先天的成分——也就是时空观和康德的12对范畴。这些被称之为观念的东西才是具有客观必然性的。以前的人都认为我们的观念必须符合对象，对象才是那个应该具有客观性的东西，但是康德说其实不是的。我们认识一个对象，好像是对象作用于我们的观念，使我们的观念去“符合”对象，但首先还是这个对象符合了我们的观念（时空观及范畴）。 因此康德哲学所带来的“哥白尼式的革命”也就是将“观念符合对象”说完全颠倒过来——对象应符合观念。 扯远了。还是再去背背六级高频词汇吧。多看一次希望下午能够正好考到。 God Bless All of us.

in my hometown

In my hometown, when someone dies, we all call to attend a funeral. We have music and some person’s performance at the stage to have fun of us. We laugh loudly before the body of the dead people, coz we might thought they have the ability to see the activities so that they will not feel lonely the night before we send them to the place where their bodies burnt.
We’ve kept this custom for years, nobody think it’s unrespectable to the dead ones. Actually I really approve this. We must be sad about the dead ones; people cry and shout all the time. We have to relax so that we can bear the burden death brined to us. Most of us find death a horrible thing. We dare not to face death directly in a funeral. Like me, I would rather hide away from the funeral but not attend it. I’m completely afraid of listening the songs which only are widely heard when a people die. The songs make you feel sad really and also let you think of the dead one.
But there are things we have to face in our life, our relative’s death for example. We can’t lose the braveness to live and we should live happier as they wish. We have no choice but hide our sadness back and try to be positive.

无病呻吟

无病呻吟，是人的通病。
话说我某天在路上遇见某位身体微圆的MM，人家亲热的和我打招呼，还过来和我挽着手。我心里着急，我知道她又要开始她那无尽的抱怨了。无非是那一套：你知道我最近脸又圆了；我的腿又变粗了；我这次考试肯定过不了……。
再一日，正当我一个人坐在安静的一隅准备看书的时候，一个我极不愿意碰到的人竟偶然的瞧见我。他抓住我就好像抓住了救民稻草，噼里啪啦的将一些该说不该说的都一股脑儿倾倒给我。我本来和他不熟，他偏要告诉我，他喜欢XX，追了快一年了；他和XX公司吵架，TMD，这个社会真是道德沦丧啊。我心里想，你也不见得怎么有道德。在这公共场合，高声的骂脏话，这种宣泄一点都不顾及旁人的感受。
又一日，无聊之中随手拿起同宿舍MM的一本书，一看文风，猜测大概是某个想出名想疯了却又要假装远离世俗的80后作家写的。不出所料。那种无病呻吟的笔调，其实谁都写得出来，只是有人不屑于写，而有人偏偏以病为美。
龚自珍曾有一篇病梅馆记，写江浙一带的人喜欢给梅树剪枝，自以为能够整出个好摸样来，岂不知是犯了违背自然规律的罪，结果自然要被自然所淘汰掉。知道你，我，我们最大的悲哀在哪里吗？以病态为美而不自知。唐朝的时候，以肥胖为美，女人都可以穿低胸的衣服，没有人会觉得有伤风化。现在以瘦为美，同样以暴露为性感。但是这种暴露是一种自我暴露，是病态的自我呈现。
孔子教我们要反身求诸己。就来我来说，平时在姐姐们面前也总是抱怨没钱花，无非是想骗点银子。这倒也无伤大雅，无关风化。倒是有些人，偏生将这些本该只是抱怨的说话当成是真的生活，将无病呻吟当成是一种生活原则。

Tears Down

Tears down beyond my control
I never explore why
But I let them do whatever
They want to
Ignore the sadness I still cry
Tears are coming from
The feelings which I don’t feel
Inside me

There must be sad things
I’ve never seen
What are they?
Where do they come from?
Why do they choose me?
And how long do they want to stay?
So much questions without answer
I’m confused

They come across me one day
When I’m exactly in a mode of fragility
May they continue to go
I suppose they just tired
Wanting a pause upon me
They are not cruel
They are not deliberate
So am I

my dear friend

A few days ago, I thought I should go shopping coz I felt really sad about my life. But the wind stopped me doing so. This afternoon I came with my friend at high school to go out for she wanted to buy a hat for keeping warm. We went to Carrefour, but did not find one match her style. We were luck though, coz we soon found another shop where sold fashion clothes and hats. She chose a brown hat without anything special on it. But I saw her like it so much, so I said it’s better than anyone we had seen before. She made the decision after I said that.
She is a nice girl, but sometimes a little selfish like every human absolutely including me. We kept our friendship since we are in our hometown in Hunan Province. We came to the same city and the same university. We both appreciate the lasting of our friendship. After the graduation, we may go to different cities, but we don’t care that longer. We know now is more important than future.

11th

The basketball match this afternoon was very disappointed to me. Though the girls were all paying out their whole energy, but we still lost the game. And no one dare say that he was not concerned about the result. Do not mention the boys, they didn’t deserve it. They did quite an unpleasant job that I felt embarrassed upon them. I knew if I were a member of the team, though we might lose it, with struggling to beat the enemies, what’s more important to us was member spirit we kept during the game. I’m out of anger now, it’s beyond my business.
Now let us turn our sights to look at this boy from the News and Transmission School whose number is 11, the same as Yao’s. I appreciated his technique and the way he showed his high level to the opponent. Because of his adept skills, he had the power to show himself in front of the others. When someone was preventing his aggression, he just smiled, and without a word, he transferred the ball to other teammates decisively and handsomely. I was attracted by his high speed on the playground, and the smile only he owned. He had the qualification to treat the match just like a game between little kids. Suddenly I remember the Japanese cartoon star whose moniker is “strange thief named kid.” He is clever than Conan. I feel jealous on him, so does Conan I believe. In all, I want to express my favor to that very 11th.

it never pours.it pours heavily

I still remember this proverb, translated in Chinese it means “祸不单行”. But I don’t mean that by using it here. Today in our city it rains heavily.
Do you love raining? One of my friends says that she does not like it because when it rains outside, we can’t go out for fun. What’s worse, the windows may be broken, the doors may shut up suddenly, and also the thunder will frighten us, especially the little babies.
But please do not ignore the advantages of rain. We can not leave rain for getting a foison. The farms need water from raining to gain their corns. And poets need rain to get their inspiration. And we, students, like raining sometimes as it provide a chance to speak to strangers, for instance, “excuse me, I do not take my umbrella with me, so can you lend me a hand to send me home?” Constantly, boys are very glad to be asked by beautiful girls, so do girls.
Everything that happens in nature is good, even the disasters have advantages to our human beings. I love nature, I love wind, rain, snow and so on. I know something which is really terrible happened in nature, but think what we have done on them. We are hurting them all the time. We think that they don’t have feelings, so we never sympathize on them. We are the killer of nature, and we are the judge at the same time. May be it’s time for us to look back to ourselves. And protecting the nature is always our duty.